Winds from the West

Can I just say that this weather is ridiculous! I thought moving to the cities would get me out of the wind-blown tundra that is Fargo-Moorhead, but apparently not. Part of the fence was missing this morning, I saw a house with part of it siding blown off, a lamp pole was knocked over as well as a stop light...just craziness. The wind also helped the sleet accumulate on my car windows helping me realize that I do not have an ice scraper/brush thing. One necessity for winter in the midwest, so it has been put on my list of things to get. So this morning I used a dust pan with a squeegee thing to scoop the unwanted precipitation off my windows...not sure if my father would be proud of my creativity or disappointed at my lack of preparedness. Anywho...it was a memorable morning and a great way to say goodbye to fall and hello winter! Bring it.

no plans...

Life is so strange at the moment. I think this is the first time in my life that I have no plans or idea of what is to come. The dream of how wonderful life would be after college has been shattered and as hard as it has been, I think I kind of like it. I'm learning to be much more flexible and take every day as it comes. For now, I'm trusting that I'm where I'm supposed to be but also praying for opportunities to open and the discernment to go where I'm supposed to. Right now I'm actually considering grad school... I think for student affairs or admissions type thing at the university level. So I will continue to do research and depending on what I find and how I feel led, so I may be going back to school eventually. but nothing is set in stone. 

At some point, with my unplanned time (that I am trying to embrace) I want to:
1. sky dive (I know I've already talked about this, but the fund is coming along quite nicely!)
2. make a quilt
3. make something out of real pumpkin, not just from a can
4. make a Christmas card to send out (it seems like a very adult thing to do)

And on a another note, I have officially put in my 2 weeks notice at Caribou! I am somewhat sad to say goodbye...especially to the discount, but I am ready to move on. I did have a little boost of self-esteem when one of the girls told me she didn't want me to leave because they actually liked me (they don't really like new people at the store I transferred to). Now, I will go visit and be able to enjoy my time at Caribou with leisure as a customer :)

BLUR

These last few weeks have been CRAZY! I suppose that's good, because it means I have things to fill my time and actually means I'm being productive with myself. But it's all coming back to me why my homework was often done the night before it was due...simply stated, I'm a procrastinator.  I don't think working 2 jobs has helped me any, so soon enough I will be cutting the Caribou part of my life out (hopefully by the end of the week, but don't tell my boss yet). The thing is, I just need to find time to put my two weeks in writing and drop it off at work. But alas, here I am blogging as the Bible lesson I need to prepare for tomorrow night's SAY Yes program cries out for my attention. So this is all I can say for now...but life is good and I'm excited for the weekend-my sister's coming to visit :) peace out

one of my downfalls

Today I realized the severity of my addiction problem. I decided that I didn't need a cup of coffee (or 3) this morning, and was going strong drinking my water until a dull pain started behind my eyes...and then it got to me by mid-afternoon; the excruciating pain that made everything I did make me want to cry...Ok, maybe not that terrible, but it was pretty bad. But I solved the problem with a diet coke and a half-caf iced carmel latte.

I do not want to be bound to my need for caffeine, so I am going to take proactive steps to lessen my dependency.   Ask me how it's going in a week!

pro-napper!

Today was my first day at my new job-hooray! Kind of a strange time to start, because the guy I'll be working directly under is at conferences all week and today was the day of prayer.  So everything was a little scattered but we made it work and I am excited to go back tomorrow!

Besides starting my new job, I also worked my other job at Caribou...so I jetted out of Here's Life a tad early, grabbed a bite to eat, changed and managed to sneak in a 7 minute nap in my car right before heading in to work. I say with confidence that I believe my ability to fall asleep in a matter of seconds is ultimately a spiritual gift. So now I will collapse in my bed and be out cold in approximately 45 seconds. peace out

A million different thoughts!

I will spare you and not post them all...but this last week or so has been somewhat of a blur. I don't even know why, but my life has felt more chaotic than it has since making the big move. Maybe it's because a lot of things are starting and I'm actually starting to get involved in things.

I filled out paperwork for my new job and am so excited to start this week! Along with that came the realization that working 2 jobs may stress me out, but I'm sure after a few weeks of adjusting it will be fine (right?). I started helping with a S.A.Y. Yes! center which is a church-based after school program where I'll be one night a week and I'm already in love with the kids I get to hang out with! I also joined Bible Study Fellowship, where I'll be another night of the week hopefully meeting some people and maybe even making friends...It doesn't sound like a lot, but it's a lot of "new" right now, and I think that is what makes it draining to me. Tonight I found myself laying on my floor in exhaustion and mentally preparing for the week ahead (kind of ridiculous, I know!). And there is still a church to be found for me to regularly attend...yikes!

A lot to think about, and a lot of thoughts running through this little mind of mine, but I'm just going to take everything day by day, continue to trust God in all things and try not to worry about anything (which we all know is much easier said than done).

On a side-note, I spectated my first marathon today! Very fun and inspiring, yet not enough to inspire me to ever want to do such a thing. (I will gladly jump out of a plane and go sky diving rather than run 26.2 dreadful miles...some people were just not meant to run) It was a perfect day :)

list-maker

That is exactly what I am...a list maker. I like to write things down that need to be done and cross them off upon completion. Since today was the beginning of a new month (and since today was the day I went to Target) I bought myself a new planner, which I am very excited about :) I've been thinking about getting one for awhile now but couldn't justify it since mine worked perfectly fine. Yes, it still does the trick, but my old one will be out of date soon, and I've had my eye on one for a few weeks now, so I went for it-daring, I know! I love organization and details, so I guess me buying a planner is like some girls buying a new pair of shoes. Especially now that I will be working 2 jobs, trying to figure out life and get connected, having a deluxe planner will be extremely beneficial (and maybe make me feel like I'm getting things together...maybe).

I have tomorrow afternoon free, so look forward to hearing more about my life this past week...I know, I've been terrible at updating and posting new things, but it's a work in progress, and it's on my list of things to do ;)