spent

time has somehow escaped me...i must go to bed, but for now i wanted to share a song that i have been listening to repeatedly the last 2 days...i love it.
http://listen.grooveshark.com/#/s/Let+Your+Light+Shine/2oub6H
peace out

someday...

I look forward to keeping my clothes in something other than plastic rubber-maid tote drawers...someday...

haircut

I went to get a haircut today, which I was a little nervous for...I've had some pretty bad haircut experiences, so going to a new salon had me a little on edge. I was thinking I would keep it long since I've actually grown it out, but the stylist convinced me otherwise...

soul searching.

Today was absolutely beautiful and since I had the day off I got to spend a good portion of my afternoon sitting on the deck reading and journaling and just taking it all in. I love fall. You can wear jeans, a baseball tee and a zippy without getting hot. And even though my toes got a little chilly, I thoroughly enjoyed every minute of it!

In this transition of life, I've had a lot of down time to really think about life and contemplate what the Lord's doing in my life...but especially on my days off when I have nothing else planned, I have A LOT of time to think. And contemplate. So today I continued to realize how truly blessed I am. In all things. God is so good to me and not often enough do I thank him. I'm beginning to be more and more grateful for the way I was raised and how great my family is. Even though I don't like my current part-time job, it's a job and I've been given another one on top of that. I have a place to live. I had a cup of coffee to drink (more like a pot today). I don't know why, but today I felt especially thankful for all of these things and know that too often I take much of the things I'm given in life for granted. 

My other "deep" thought of the day was that I want to bring glory to God and enjoy life even in this time of transition and unrest when sometimes I don't really know how. Even though somedays I'm not sure how to do that I just want to live in the moment each day. I know I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be and I know there is so much more to come, so as I wait expectantly for where the Lord will bring me next I want to use this time to live with no distractions or restrictions.

On a completely other note however, tomorrow I am going to get my haircut...at least I say that I am (I've been saying it for a while now). I'm still contemplating if I want to keep it long and just put layers in or if I want to go short...I'll keep you posted. peace out all

summer is gone

I realized today that it is not even October and my summer tan is gone. The tan lines have completely faded and are non-existant, and so begins the time to embrace pale skin...for the next 8 months.

k.a.h. not c.c.a.

Rebekah. It's a hard concept to grasp for some people, but yes, I do spell my name uniquely.  Even now as I typed it, my computer has tried to correct me. And it seems as though people have commented on the spelling of my name rather frequently as of late.

1. I went to a Twins game and one of the vendors asked if the credit card company mis-spelled my name. No.
2. In an interview one person pronounced it Beak-ah. No. After politely correcting him, he told me he though it might be middle-eastern. Do I look like I have middle-eastern heritage? No. (side note:this was a particularly sketchy interview/"company")
3. The very nice gentlemen at the garage told me he had never seen that spelling and that he thought it was very nice. Maybe he was just being polite, but I took it as a compliment anyway.

For some reason, I don't understand peoples confusion with it but perhaps it's because it is what I have always known...I like how my name is spelled and am happy my parents chose it. It is just another part of what makes me who I am I suppose, as cheesy as that sounds. And so ends the rant about the spelling of my name.

FULL day

I had today off, which included:

• 5 loads of laundry
• oil change for the KIA
• also a tire rotation for sportster
• finally went grocery shopping...finally (I think I had a piece of moldy toast yesterday)
• AND accepted an administrative assistant position with Here's Life Inner City-whoop whoop!!

So, all in all I would say it was a very productive day :)

*I realize that my blog is in need of a little somethin-somethin like pictures etc. so I'll get to that point someday.

blessed

In so many ways, I am extremely blessed. I got to go home to fabulous Fargo-Moorhead this past weekend and spend some much needed time with my dearest family and friends who make me feel SO loved. After the weekend I just felt like I was glowing and oozing joy, but alas I had to come back to make the big bucks at the "bou". i wish! As much as I sometimes dread going, I am grateful for it and am getting to know my co-workers better, which makes it more bearable. I think the reason it is so hard sometimes is because it is such a transitionary place for me which makes it hard to invest. I know I will not be here forever, but until I am led elsewhere it's where I'm at and I will do my best to embrace it.

On a completely different note though, I had an interview today which I thought went very well. It's just for a part time administrative assistant position, but it's with a sweet ministry called Here's Life Inner City. I think it's something I would love doing and would be a great experience, so I'll try not to get my hopes up too much if it doesn't work out. So, we'll see what happens...


I also went to a small group tonight and met some wonderful people. I think I'll continue to go and try to get connected and plugged in. It's through Bethlehem Baptist, which I will be checking out this weekend. I've been before, but as I continue to find a church here in the cities I want to refresh my memory and keep it on the list.

As I continue on this extremely fun (said sarcastically of course) transitionary phase of life I am definitely being stretched beyond my limits, but am learning so much and know that I will look back and be grateful for it...someday. For now I continue to trust and thank God for all He has done.

Sports FAN

Today is a casual day at work...what that means is that we can wear either Twins or Vikings apparel. (I don't own either) But since I am now an "unofficial" resident of Minnesota, I figured it would be a good investment.  So today, I purchased my first article of Vikings clothing-a purple t-shirt with "Vikings" across the front and "Favre" and a big ol' number 4 on the back. I'm not really sure why, but it felt very strange to me to buy a Vikings t-shirt. Maybe because I'm not really a sports fan. I was laughing inside when I checked out because the cashier was going on and on about getting ready for the BIG GAME tonight and how she just hopes that Favre doesn't get hurt and then she told me to enjoy the game. I didn't have the heart to tell her I wouldn't actually be watching. Maybe someday I'll get into it, but for now I will just pretend I'm a true fan by wearing their colors. Go Vikes!!

back to it

Labor day weekend was a success with some quality time with great friends which included my first experience at the Minnesota State Fair (eating a lot of fried food and things on sticks), a Twins game and some good old chillaxin. It felt comfortable, unlike the somewhat awkward day by day life that I am currently living and went back to today. 

I continue the job search that continues to, well...suck (to be completely honest), with a continuance of no call backs and no leads. Working part-time, paying rent and buying other daily essentials makes the monetary funds deplete rather quickly. My sister suggested moving home (jokingly). I hate to admit it, but I have thought about it. Sometimes I wonder what I'm doing here...why did I move? What for? I could have been working part-time in Fargo with people I love around me. Don't get me wrong, there are people I love here, I just don't understand life sometimes. And I know that it's just a season I'm in that I will not understand until I look back on it all. 

I jokingly made the comment this weekend that the most consistent thing in my life right now, was going to the same church two weeks in a row...and Caribou (jokingly as well)...and God...but really, God is the ONLY constant in my life right now and He will always be the ONLY constant. Things will only continue to be ever-changing, but I can always rely on my heavenly Father. A question that stuck out from a book I've been reading this week was 

"Do you want to see God more than you desire security?" 

That was extremely convicting, because so far I've been so consumed with finding a "real person" job and figuring out my life to have stability and independence, but that is so twisted.  I just want to be used to bring glory to God, wherever that is and whatever I might be doing. 

On a side note, my favorite thing about today though: it was about 55 degrees :) I love fall! My manager today says to me "It's pretty cold out today. I suppose you're used to this kind of weather though." I wasn't exactly sure what he meant by that or how I was supposed to respond so I just smiled and said "Yup, I love it" even though really I wanted to say "Where do you think I'm from?!". Fargo is not THAT different than Minneapolis...

Enough of my ramblings...until later :)

Grad School?

Yes. It is a definite possibility. For what? That's a good question. At this point in time, I am very much so figuring things out. But let's be real; I will never figure it all out...

In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. -proverbs 16:9