day off.

Today is my day off...so what do I do with myself? Go sit in a coffee shop for a few hours, of course.  Usually I frequent a fun little Dunn Bros just a few blocks away, but today I thought I'd mix it up so I went to Starbucks. I love Starbucks, but the internet let me down. I suppose it all worked out though because I got to read and journal with no temptation to be easily distracted.

In my time of transition, I've learned to embrace solitude. Everything is SO different. New job, new co-workers, new city, new roommate, but one of the biggest changes I'm adjusting to is the change of pace. I've always been so used to constantly being surrounded by people, and having the choice of when I want to be alone. Now I am often by myself until something else comes up. As much as I'm not sure if I like all of this "me" time, it's giving me time to learn about myself and time to spend in prayer and time with Jesus.

Though the job hunt still haunts me, I have plenty to be thankful for. This past weekend, I spent some quality time with great friends which was so comforting. And while there is much that is unknown in my life, there is much to look forward to...more new things, fall and Starbucks pumpkin spice mochas :)

Bad. Day.

Well, it was bound to happen I suppose. Today was a bad day. I did not want to be here...in the cities, on my own, away from home and so on. I was just kind of over everything. There was nothing even too terrible about today, it was "just one of those days". So after a long day of work, I came home took a long hot shower and proceeded to veg-out in my room for...mmm, about 4 hours consisting of reading, listening to music, a few tears (possibly a lot) and some interspersed napping. Up until now, I've been taking in all things new but I believe it's finally hit me that I'm not just visiting or on vacation, rather I've moved to the "big city" attempting to make something of myself in the adult world. Let me tell ya, it's overrated. But really, tomorrow is a new day and days like today are going to happen. Transition is never easy and everything is very different at the moment, but the great and fabulous thing is that I am so loved by a gracious God, and wonderful family and friends that He has blessed me with.  So here's to change!!

And I do want to say, that I did eventually pull myself together after hiding in my room all afternoon to have a very enjoyable evening :)

saving up!

One nice thing about my new "bou" is that I make bank in tips-holla! But, speaking of banks, since I don't have one in the cities yet and therefore cannot cash in all of my change, I came up with a plan: After buying a very, Very large jar to put my change in, I decided I wanted to save it all for something just great. That great thing you may ask...SKYDIVING!

For some time now, I've been wanting to go skydiving. However, until I have health insurance (just in case of any mis-haps) I need to wait. So now I will save my pennies until I am insured and the jar is full :)

 

so far, so good

It has been exactly one week since "the big move" and all I have to say is so far, so good. I think this is positive considering the fact that I hate change. 

• The transition from Caribou's went well...it is different, but the people seem nice enough and I love that I'm not completely starting all over since everything is somewhat familiar.  
• I still continue to peruse numerous job listings daily and send out the resume I feel I worked so hard on but is getting me zero response. Part of me wonders if I'm doing this whole job search thing right...but alas, I continue to wait and trust that there is something out there waiting just for me!
• Today began another hunt-for a new church. Sadly enough, I think this is what overwhelms me the most about this whole move.  I crave the community and fellowship, but it seems so daunting to me...especially all on my lonesome. But, it will come....all in time; God's timing, just like everything else.

I miss my family and friends, even Fargo-Moorhead, but soon the twin cities will feel like home...I hope :) that's all for now

a new beginning

With my first week of living in the cities almost under my belt, it's slowly starting to sink in that this really is the next step in my life and not just a little vacation-eek. Though it comes with a range of emotions including excitement, anxiety, fear etc. It also comes with a sense of freedom. 4 years ago I would have been scared out of my mind, but I've learned to embrace a sense of "free-spiritedness" that makes me up for almost anything! This is also where the phrase I live by, "we'll see what happens" ,has come from. I'm learning to not make plans and be adaptable, so who knows what will be next!

I continue to look for jobs, though it is so daunting, and trust the Lord for his timing and provision...I can't imagine going through such life changes without knowing such a loving God. And my mom keeps telling me that she's not worried about me and knows I'll be just fine-thanks mom :) 

So here I am, embracing technology and attempting to be a blogger as well as openly give others a glimpse into the oh so glamorous life of Bekah (ha). Someday I'll have exciting things to write about I'm sure...sigh. I've never been the best at expressing myself, but I'll give it a shot and hope not to bore anyone too terribly much :) peace out