back to it

Labor day weekend was a success with some quality time with great friends which included my first experience at the Minnesota State Fair (eating a lot of fried food and things on sticks), a Twins game and some good old chillaxin. It felt comfortable, unlike the somewhat awkward day by day life that I am currently living and went back to today. 

I continue the job search that continues to, well...suck (to be completely honest), with a continuance of no call backs and no leads. Working part-time, paying rent and buying other daily essentials makes the monetary funds deplete rather quickly. My sister suggested moving home (jokingly). I hate to admit it, but I have thought about it. Sometimes I wonder what I'm doing here...why did I move? What for? I could have been working part-time in Fargo with people I love around me. Don't get me wrong, there are people I love here, I just don't understand life sometimes. And I know that it's just a season I'm in that I will not understand until I look back on it all. 

I jokingly made the comment this weekend that the most consistent thing in my life right now, was going to the same church two weeks in a row...and Caribou (jokingly as well)...and God...but really, God is the ONLY constant in my life right now and He will always be the ONLY constant. Things will only continue to be ever-changing, but I can always rely on my heavenly Father. A question that stuck out from a book I've been reading this week was 

"Do you want to see God more than you desire security?" 

That was extremely convicting, because so far I've been so consumed with finding a "real person" job and figuring out my life to have stability and independence, but that is so twisted.  I just want to be used to bring glory to God, wherever that is and whatever I might be doing. 

On a side note, my favorite thing about today though: it was about 55 degrees :) I love fall! My manager today says to me "It's pretty cold out today. I suppose you're used to this kind of weather though." I wasn't exactly sure what he meant by that or how I was supposed to respond so I just smiled and said "Yup, I love it" even though really I wanted to say "Where do you think I'm from?!". Fargo is not THAT different than Minneapolis...

Enough of my ramblings...until later :)